I don't know sometimes without any reason i begin to hate myself like anything..juss few moments ago i was like the same normal person i am...suddenly don't know what happened...and i was like...man...cmon i need to improve !!!
i seriously cant take chances when it comes to my self respect !! I keep it on top ...and when it gets hurt i tend to cut loose !!! i just cant handle it...thats another thing i dont reveal it that time... coz i always keep my emotions in control !!! hell..its the worst feeling in my life !!
What i knew about myself some time ago was that i can understand people ,i can know what they are made of...blah blah ...but some incidents in my life have left me in a tizzy...
Why do everyone want to imply their their thinking on me...Why am i thought of as a manipulative assassin ??? cmon apply some break on your minds for god's sake... !! listen to what other's have to say!!
It may be true that they are some very intelligent and much more socially sound but that doesnt mean u keep on connoting your thoughts on others !!
May be i am not conveying the real thing....May be i am mixing different things !!! just wanted to relax a bit by throwing out all the crap in my mind...i generally feel good aftr writing .... !!!
huh !! I know i need to improve!!!!
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Coming over my fear
Actually I have been going for swimming for quite a while now..and i guess and can swim a bit..actually i was very much afraid of deep water until today morning.. (yeah yeah.. hold on i coming to the relevant part...) ...I used to swim in may be around 6 feet or 5 feet deep water.i always had the fear man i will be drowned..(gosh..what will happen to all those gals waitin for me :-P)...Today also i was kinda moving my lazy legs in that good for nothing deep water..then one of my friend called me and said...cmon loser ..why the hell are u burning your ass over there..come here and see if u have some guts in you ...I was kinda filled up..man how come he say that i was a coward...
i saw nothing and went straight in to 12 feet..man then only i realised that i was screwed...i had that sinking feeling many a times and literally "fatne lagi" :-P....With some help from a friend and some confidence in me to come over this fear.. i just jumped in from the edge of the pool straight in to the pool....i was feeling water coming over my head and pushing me inside as if it wants to have another prey and fill its empty stomach.... huh!!( water is really another strange creation of nature..in a way it gives life...another day it can take away life)....
I was kinda furious atthat time..but i didnt panic...I took the challenge bravely and managed to come outside..with my head high 8-) !!! that moment of touching the edge of pool again was filled with a lot of confidence and eagerness to take thi challenge again....i jumped again and again....and i got better by the time..It may be sounding just like any other thing...but for a person who is afraid of deep water it was something!!!
Risk is definitely required if u want to do something u have never done..u have to come out of your shell for sure...and thats what i tried out today....a thing to note is that risk should be calculative....i mean you should have a possible way by which you can minimise the loss incurred dueto that risk(if it happens) !!!
So friends there is nothing like fear....
i saw nothing and went straight in to 12 feet..man then only i realised that i was screwed...i had that sinking feeling many a times and literally "fatne lagi" :-P....With some help from a friend and some confidence in me to come over this fear.. i just jumped in from the edge of the pool straight in to the pool....i was feeling water coming over my head and pushing me inside as if it wants to have another prey and fill its empty stomach.... huh!!( water is really another strange creation of nature..in a way it gives life...another day it can take away life)....
I was kinda furious atthat time..but i didnt panic...I took the challenge bravely and managed to come outside..with my head high 8-) !!! that moment of touching the edge of pool again was filled with a lot of confidence and eagerness to take thi challenge again....i jumped again and again....and i got better by the time..It may be sounding just like any other thing...but for a person who is afraid of deep water it was something!!!
Risk is definitely required if u want to do something u have never done..u have to come out of your shell for sure...and thats what i tried out today....a thing to note is that risk should be calculative....i mean you should have a possible way by which you can minimise the loss incurred dueto that risk(if it happens) !!!
So friends there is nothing like fear....
Hell u can beat it!!!
Father of Indian Software Business
Here are some words by the great "NARAYAN MURHTY" co founder of INFOSYS Technologies!!
I am a fan of this man..and really a follower of his ideologies ..so i thought of including one of his speeches over here!
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Based on my life experiences, I can assert that it is this belief in
learning from experience, a growth mindset, the power of chance events, and self-reflection that have helped me grow to the present.
Back in the 1960s, the odds of my being in front of you today would have been zero. Yet here I stand before you! With every successive step, the odds kept changing in my favor, and it is these life lessons that made all the difference.
My young friends, I would like to end with some words of advice. Do you believe that your future is pre-ordained, and is already set? Or, do you believe that your future is yet to be written and that it will depend upon the sometimes fortuitous events?
Do you believe that these events can provide turning points to which you will respond with your energy and enthusiasm? Do you believe that you will learn from these events and that you will reflect on your setbacks ? Do you believe that you will examine your successes with even greater care?
I hope you believe that the future will be shaped by several turning points with great learning opportunities. In fact, this is the path I have walked to much advantage.
A final word: When, one day, you have made your mark on the world, remember that, in the ultimate analysis, we are all mere temporary custodians of the wealth we generate, whether it be financial, intellectual, or emotional. The best use of all your wealth is to share it with those less fortunate.
I believe that we have all at some time eaten the fruit from trees that we did not plant. In the fullness of time, when it is our turn to give, it behooves us in turn to plant gardens that we may never eat the fruit of, which will largely benefit generations to come. I believe this is our sacred responsibility, one that I hope you will shoulder in time.
Thank you for your patience. Go forth and embrace your future with open arms, and pursue enthusiastically your own life journey of discovery!
Hell.....GO Away ..we don;t need it!!
I was watching some news channel today...watching a report of some kind..I was thunderstruck after it ended....you won't believe it was regarding the love story of two leopards..hell....!!!
It showed how the male leopard was flirting with the female leopard and also trying to seduce her :-P !!! they presented it as "BREAKING NEWS" !!!! wow,so the Indian people are now shown that a leopard can flirt too....what a great piece of information and journalism is that !!!! ***mocking***
Gimme a break ... We don't need to know that..There are other relevant issues too which i feel these Tv channels can also focus on..There are so many bad evils and issues concerning our country,when will thay be highlighted????
Don't tell me that "leopard romancing" is more important than the reservations..or for that matter anything!!! Hell,how can they even think about airing that crap !!
This is just the tip of iceburg....another channel showed two snakes making love ... :-P !!lol..
and yeah i remember that news where it was told that nothing on earth will be left on December 12,1012...wow,these news channels are omniscient....!I felt pity about the Indian media when it was declared by CBi that Rajesh Talwar was innocent !! hell they said so many bad things about Dr. Rajesh Talwar..by applying their dirty minds on the very sensitive murder Case!!!
Through this post i want to request INDIAN MEDIA to be a bit sincere..and try to come out with some issues that are relevant in the interest of the nation!!!
It showed how the male leopard was flirting with the female leopard and also trying to seduce her :-P !!! they presented it as "BREAKING NEWS" !!!! wow,so the Indian people are now shown that a leopard can flirt too....what a great piece of information and journalism is that !!!! ***mocking***
Gimme a break ... We don't need to know that..There are other relevant issues too which i feel these Tv channels can also focus on..There are so many bad evils and issues concerning our country,when will thay be highlighted????
Don't tell me that "leopard romancing" is more important than the reservations..or for that matter anything!!! Hell,how can they even think about airing that crap !!
This is just the tip of iceburg....another channel showed two snakes making love ... :-P !!lol..
and yeah i remember that news where it was told that nothing on earth will be left on December 12,1012...wow,these news channels are omniscient....!I felt pity about the Indian media when it was declared by CBi that Rajesh Talwar was innocent !! hell they said so many bad things about Dr. Rajesh Talwar..by applying their dirty minds on the very sensitive murder Case!!!
Through this post i want to request INDIAN MEDIA to be a bit sincere..and try to come out with some issues that are relevant in the interest of the nation!!!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Early Morning Madness
So here i am again in front of my PC....starting the same monotonous life all over again on a new day...
Most of the people will never like to dig their eyes in to this idiot Box at this early morning time..but me..huh....man i am addicted!! :(
I sleep every night thinking about waking up early to do some yoga and i have been thinking the same for about a year now...SUCH a lOSER ..I am !!! Its just that i am the biggest sloth on this earth.. and i hate this weakness of mine...but the only good part about me is that i know where i am weak ....and the worst part is i never get over these weaknesses of mine!!
But i feel i am improving though i am not waking up at 5 but i do wake up at 6 for the last one month or so (not a bad start..considering the level of laziness i am at)
You know this laziness thing is one of those bad habbits one should never acquire...It shows on a persons face if he has woken up at 5 or at 11.... and i bet the former one's enjoy the day better than the sluggish race...!!!
So cmon u lazy people If I can improve ..You are far far better !!!
Most of the people will never like to dig their eyes in to this idiot Box at this early morning time..but me..huh....man i am addicted!! :(
I sleep every night thinking about waking up early to do some yoga and i have been thinking the same for about a year now...SUCH a lOSER ..I am !!! Its just that i am the biggest sloth on this earth.. and i hate this weakness of mine...but the only good part about me is that i know where i am weak ....and the worst part is i never get over these weaknesses of mine!!
But i feel i am improving though i am not waking up at 5 but i do wake up at 6 for the last one month or so (not a bad start..considering the level of laziness i am at)
You know this laziness thing is one of those bad habbits one should never acquire...It shows on a persons face if he has woken up at 5 or at 11.... and i bet the former one's enjoy the day better than the sluggish race...!!!
So cmon u lazy people If I can improve ..You are far far better !!!
Life---the Best Word????
LIFE -tHe bEsT wOrD
LIFE IS A JOURNEY IT'S DESTINATION UNKNOWN
lOOK FOR A NEW ADVNTURE EVRY DAWN
EVERDAY INFACT IS A NEW ADVNTRE 4 U
JUST DO IT WHEN U HAV UR MOVE
LIFE TAKES ,MANY TURNS
SOME FULL OF ROSES AND SOME FERNS
BUT EVERY TURN, MY FRND
TEACHES A NEW LESSON EVERY TYM
DONT WORRY COZ IT'S PART OF LYF
IT MAKES YOU LAUGH IT MAKES U CRY
IT TEACHES U TO BEAR,IT TEACHES U TO FIGHT
cOZ MY FRND THATS LIFE !!!!
Here is another mess that was created by me !! Hell....I think a lot !!!
I Wish I Could
When at night the starry sky sparkles
In my dreams numerous desire crackles
as the stars in the sky are difficult to count
So innumerable my wishes amount
Birds fly in the sky greatly inspie me
To fly ovr the horizon to the sea
In order to touch the stars in the sky
I wish if i could fly that high
For the birds the materialistic boundaries hav no meaning
Oh god plz bless me with such a blessing
and there is no end to Godly creations
I wish i could b lyk the wave in the sea
Which can never be stopped by any lock and key
Jst as the waves are never still to jump from one shore to another would be a great thrill
Waves are not bound by any borders
Only man is bound to follow this order
I wish i could remain socially unbound
To lead a life solemnly sound !!!
AWESUM !!!!
Now when i have started the topic of indian politics...I would like to mention the recent speech given by OMAR UBDULLAH of national conference int he parliament ont he day of trust vote!!
aftr watching him speak i was kinda satisfied that yes we have these type of politicians left in our country too..who care about the issues in the country..
he was very much right in saying that theproblem of indian muslims is same as that of any other Indian..which includes poverty ,uneducaton etc..and i seriously go by his words !! he was enthusiastic and brought that chilling waves into me which often comes when i am watching those Patriotic movies and all...anyhow..
Another person i am hopeful of is RAHUL GANDHI..i dont know much about politics but it is just that whatever i have seen of him he was always impressive !
This is the link to the Omar ubdullah speech in the parliament..if anyone missed it here is how he can see it!! -----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mr2Fjw5A0A
aftr watching him speak i was kinda satisfied that yes we have these type of politicians left in our country too..who care about the issues in the country..
he was very much right in saying that theproblem of indian muslims is same as that of any other Indian..which includes poverty ,uneducaton etc..and i seriously go by his words !! he was enthusiastic and brought that chilling waves into me which often comes when i am watching those Patriotic movies and all...anyhow..
Another person i am hopeful of is RAHUL GANDHI..i dont know much about politics but it is just that whatever i have seen of him he was always impressive !
actually this post of mine was dedicated to all those GOOD POLITICIANS who think about the people and really care for their country...Hey we need more of u !!
This is the link to the Omar ubdullah speech in the parliament..if anyone missed it here is how he can see it!! -----> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-mr2Fjw5A0A
Indyeah !!!
Well i thought if i am finally taking off with serious stuff why not start with my country ....INDIA!!!
First of all ...I LOVE MY INDIA !!! i always have some kind of patriotic feeling in me..From the day i started understanding the logics of society I became involved into the whole working culture of my Country !! HOW exactly "MY INDIA" functions??
and froma ll the possible permutations and combination i researched upon i found its all "JUGAAD" !!! Hell, i hate most of these politicians..everyone is selfish there in the parliament and they care nothing nothing about the well being of the people of the country.
whatever i have learnt about the parliament people is that they work on a principle called " MUTUAL CRITICISM". ..
Recently i was reading something about th nuke deal in newspaper..and there i found that we have such MP's too who dont even know about the pros and cons of the Indo-US nuke deal..and then too they are casting their vote..somebody please explain how come anyone vote on the mater he has no knowldge about..and yeah how come i forget about that incident in the parliament where 3 MPs showed the money offered to them to vote in favour of UPA !!!
I don't know who's right and who is wrong all i know is that it is spoiling the trust of the people in the Parliament!
No doubt it was the saddest day in the History of the country!!
I seriously feel we need a change ...We have had a lot..We have suffered alot..Man,from the ay i was born i am listening..."INDIA IS A DEVELOPING COUNTRY......INDIA IS A DEVELOPING COUNTRY" ..when the hell will i listen that "INDIA IS A DEVELOPED COUNTRY"!!!
they say its gonna be developed by 2025..but i am most skeptical about it..I am sure if the present situation persists its gonna take another century or even more than that !!!
I am blaming the politicians and all..but i think the culprits are the People of INDIA....and that includes me ...We Are the ones who selet these Hypocrites, these liars, these slf centered people!
So the problem lies within us only..First of all many of us take the voting day as one of those National holidays and thats very sad..Man ,instead of playng out in your lawns go and CAst your vote...I Hate those people who don't go to vote and then they say the government is not working for them and all the black stuff..They dont have any right to say that !!
But i am hopeful too..the young generation of the politicians seems to be energetic and there is a ray of hope !!!
I really wish to help my country in even the smallest way...by joining these social communities and NGOs which help the needy people..
I wish to GOD that please help my country and make all the INDIANS PROUD OF THEIR MOTHER LAND !!!
First of all ...I LOVE MY INDIA !!! i always have some kind of patriotic feeling in me..From the day i started understanding the logics of society I became involved into the whole working culture of my Country !! HOW exactly "MY INDIA" functions??
and froma ll the possible permutations and combination i researched upon i found its all "JUGAAD" !!! Hell, i hate most of these politicians..everyone is selfish there in the parliament and they care nothing nothing about the well being of the people of the country.
whatever i have learnt about the parliament people is that they work on a principle called " MUTUAL CRITICISM". ..
Recently i was reading something about th nuke deal in newspaper..and there i found that we have such MP's too who dont even know about the pros and cons of the Indo-US nuke deal..and then too they are casting their vote..somebody please explain how come anyone vote on the mater he has no knowldge about..and yeah how come i forget about that incident in the parliament where 3 MPs showed the money offered to them to vote in favour of UPA !!!
I don't know who's right and who is wrong all i know is that it is spoiling the trust of the people in the Parliament!
No doubt it was the saddest day in the History of the country!!
I seriously feel we need a change ...We have had a lot..We have suffered alot..Man,from the ay i was born i am listening..."INDIA IS A DEVELOPING COUNTRY......INDIA IS A DEVELOPING COUNTRY" ..when the hell will i listen that "INDIA IS A DEVELOPED COUNTRY"!!!
they say its gonna be developed by 2025..but i am most skeptical about it..I am sure if the present situation persists its gonna take another century or even more than that !!!
I am blaming the politicians and all..but i think the culprits are the People of INDIA....and that includes me ...We Are the ones who selet these Hypocrites, these liars, these slf centered people!
So the problem lies within us only..First of all many of us take the voting day as one of those National holidays and thats very sad..Man ,instead of playng out in your lawns go and CAst your vote...I Hate those people who don't go to vote and then they say the government is not working for them and all the black stuff..They dont have any right to say that !!
But i am hopeful too..the young generation of the politicians seems to be energetic and there is a ray of hope !!!
I really wish to help my country in even the smallest way...by joining these social communities and NGOs which help the needy people..
I wish to GOD that please help my country and make all the INDIANS PROUD OF THEIR MOTHER LAND !!!
Understanding Blogging
Man this blogging is no easy task...!! i just started understanding this whole blogspot stuff and half of the things were like going above my head...
(****WORRIED****)
ni ways..will figure them out .Being a engineer.i trust my common sense :-P !!!
there is so much to do for setting up a blog...these blogspot people really provide hell lots of options...first of all thanks to them and really wish them good luck for their future projects and all !!
AT this moment i am really thinking of some Title to my blag...
what it should be..My absurd and useless mind is not coming up with any ideas..!!
Hell I am SCREWED!!!
(****WORRIED****)
ni ways..will figure them out .Being a engineer.i trust my common sense :-P !!!
there is so much to do for setting up a blog...these blogspot people really provide hell lots of options...first of all thanks to them and really wish them good luck for their future projects and all !!
AT this moment i am really thinking of some Title to my blag...
what it should be..My absurd and useless mind is not coming up with any ideas..!!
Hell I am SCREWED!!!
Starting Off With Blogging !!
So now then i felt like man i think a lot... why not just give pain to myhands too and write off all the stuff in here !!!
Yeah yeah another Blogger is born !! :)!
hey really blogging is a kool concept..u feel like scribbling all the stuff lying inside that brain here!! and i bet it feels good!
Though i am not much conveying but then too i feel i will definitely try to make myself very clear !!
GIVE me all the wishes for a new experience !!!!
tc!
Yeah yeah another Blogger is born !! :)!
hey really blogging is a kool concept..u feel like scribbling all the stuff lying inside that brain here!! and i bet it feels good!
Though i am not much conveying but then too i feel i will definitely try to make myself very clear !!
GIVE me all the wishes for a new experience !!!!
tc!
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